Why!

Why??
can somebody tell me why..
why i have to feel hurt bout my friend..??
and
why my best friend hurt me..
aku sendiri xphm..
aku syg kat kwn aku..
aku nk tolong dye..
tapi aku sdri xphm..
knp aku nie jadi terlalu baik hati nak tolong dye??
aku menangis sbb nk tolong dye..
tapi ape dye kesah kan??
aku btl2 xphm..
knp dye xkasi aku lawan balik kata2 exgf dye yg cm sial tu..
aku nie kdg2 dah jadi bodoh..
aku xpnh lah diam bila org maki aku..
ok xpe..
sbb kwn kan..
sbb kwn aku kne maki..
sbb kwn aku di malu kan..
sbb kwn aku kne kutuk..
sbb kwn aku jadi cm nie..
rasa mcm cm xde ape je sayang dye..
aku nie selalu defend dye..
boleh ke dye defend aku mcm mane aku buat kat dye??
bleh ke??
aku mmg btl2 kecewa..
sekali lagi..
i'm still hurt.
n now..
i feel hurt once again..
eh i need someone to cure the pain..
please God..
send someone for me..
let him wipe my tears drop..
cure my pain..
n make me smile again..
i don't want to hurt him..
if i can go far away from here.
i will..
so i will not trouble him..
i happy to be your friend..
i will never cry again..
when i have to lose u again..
thankz my friend willing to be my best friend...
even before u never take know bout me..
:(