Tuesday, April 17, 2012

Now i found you.

After losing you quit long in my life..now here once again you came in y life...ya i know that..you may not be the same...but i still do love you...even sometime you make me hate you...i love you fro the first i get to know you...can you realize that why i choose you but not them..something if i can back the time...i will make sure now you are apart of my life...maybe now i'm your wife..i'm so foolish to think...encik yen..saya tak pernah lupa kan awak..kadang2 saya terpaksa buat tu semua sbb saya nak lupakan awak..sebab awk dah ada kehidupan awak sendiri..tapi tak apa..saya bahagia bila tgk awak happy..saya sayang awak..tak pernah kurang...tapi saya sedar siapa saya dalam diri awak...saya harap satu hari nanti....awak akn betul2 jadi suami saya...insyallah..kalau kita mmg di takdir kan untuk bersama...namun sekiranya tidak...saya akn terima dengan redha...dari dulu sampai sekarang...saya tetap sayang awak...harap awak paham...

Encik Ahmad Nazrel






Sunday, April 8, 2012

Something missing.

Rasa mcm something yg tak kne je skrg..empty..lonely..sadness..boring..hurt..mcm2 lah aku rasa skrg ni...actually aku tak tahu apa yg dah jadi kat aku skrg nie..rasa mcm org giler pon ada nie..sumpah aku sakit hati...with 2 things..first..pasal bf aku yg wat bodoh je ngn aku..klo agak2 dah tak syg aku...blah je lebih bagos kan..dari seksa aku mcm nie..aku dah lah ada dia sorg je..dtg dia lagi nk wa hal pulak...fuck sial rasa nk mrh je skrg nie tahu tak !! aaaaaaaaaarrrrrrggghhhh...
okay 1 lagi pasal adik angkat sorg nie..cakap mmg tak serupa bikin..aku dah agak dah..hal nie mesti akn jadi punya..cakap xnk couple lah until abis belajar...tup2..dah ada relationship skrg...why not u tell me adik..im here okay..aku belom mampus lagi lah..hmmm..knp lah semua benda nie jadi dalam masa yg sama..why and why??i need the answer even a stupid answer...klo lah aku nie boleh pergi jauh...aku dah lama buat taw...ya aku nie tak penting kan..so wat apa nk care pasal aku...is okay...soon oe later..aku akn pergi dari snie..and make a new life..with me and myself know what happen to me...so to all people make me sad...one day u will regret..mark my words...

Friday, April 6, 2012

Keep silent with a sound

Here once again..i'm come back with a sad and happy story...okay..im start with a sad story first..why so sad..??im sad because im start to feel alone once again..i may have a bf..but now im alone..from after im break up with Karim...him use to be my bf..now he happy with his gf..how i know??because i saw his picture with his gf...hang out together...i know that he happy now..ya im little bit jealous with his new gf..but...just forget it..he happy now..he thought i was happy with my bf..actually it just for awhile..im so empty...nobody will understand my situation..feel like walk with shadow..just me and myself understand what happen..my bf..he just keeping silent with sound make me sit on the wall...never call me after we have a big fight...never meet...make me like im nothing..i admit..im happy with him when i first know him..he trick me like a princess have a happy ending with her prince charming..hmmm...can someone help me out from this stupid feeling...this stupid life..this stupid relationship..if he dont love me anymore..why not he just let me know...why he must keep make me sad?everytime i talk to him..im like talking with a stone..he like never care what i feel..why should i let him make me down every time he call me..if he dont love anymore...just let me go..i know i cannot make u happy with me...cuz im just a ordinary girl have nothing to be proud about...i want u to know..every day i feel so empty..and i hope that u the right person to make me full of this feeling...but im just dreaming..u make me dreaming on the day..totally i got a lot of sadness story more then my happiness story..only 1 thing my happiness story...is now i already have jobs..so no need to depends on my family anymore..walk with a new hope..a new life..a new relationship..a new friends..but i never have a other family...and my old friends...my true friends who always with me when i down and up...sad and happy...sick and health...so im ending my story for today with a hope that one day he can change be a nice guy..be the best guy for me..Sham Haizal..i love you...please dont make me sad again..make me same like other loser guys...they dump me with no reason..please stay with me..i dont have a time to fine other guys anymore..i dont have time to make a new relationship..because im too tried with all of that..or if u dont want too..please go away from me..let me be alone..goodnight fellas...