Monday, December 28, 2009

I feel so lonely right now

TODAY I FEEL SO LONELY..
I DON'T WHY..
YES I HAVE FRIEND'S N FAMILY CAN MAKE ME HAPPY..
BUT I DON'T WHY..
I STILL FEEL SO LONELY.
I ALWAYS HURT MYSELF..
SOMETIME I CRY SO BADLY..
I TRY TO FORGET EVERYTHING..
I TRY SO HARD TO MAKE IT HAPPEN..
BUT I STILL NEED A LONG TIME 2 DO..
PEOPLE SAY "JUST FORGET HIM N UR PROBLEM"..
YES I TRY..
DON'T SAY THAT I NEVER TRY TO DO..
OK HE HAPPY WITH HIS LIFE.
BUT I SAD WHAT GOES HAPPEN TO ME..
BUT I HAVE 2 LET IT BE..
MY LIFE HAVE TO GO ON..
I JUST CAN CRY EVERYDAY..
BUT CAN'T DO ANYTHING..
PLEASE LET ME FEEL LOVE N HAPPINESS..
BECAUSE LATELY I ALWAYS FEEL WANT TO CRY..
AND I FEEL SO LONELY RIGHT NOW..

Sunday, December 27, 2009

Don't make me hate u..

I never want to hate anybody..
so don't make me hate u...
i love who love me..
i'm not desperately in love..
i just want like other.
have someone can make u feel happy..
like when open your eyes u can smell of love..
and happiness moment..
i can understand u.
if u want me to love u..
i give all of my heart..
yes i can do it..
but only for the right person..
don't ever promise me if u can't do it..
don't hurt me with your promise..
when once i love him..
i will love him until the end of my life..
but once i hate u..
i will hate u until i die..
don't make me hate u..

don't say it...

Don't say that u know me..
Don't say that u understand me..
Don't say that u love me.
Don't say that u hate me..
Don't say that u feel what i feel..
Don't say that u want me.
Don't say anything..
Don't say that forget everything that already happen to me..
Don't ever try say that if u really don't know what goes happen to me..
so shut up..and listen what i try to say..

Saturday, December 26, 2009

i want to be mammy..


I want have baby...
i like baby so much..
they r so cute..
i wish i will have baby a soon as possible..
i cant wait..
i want to be mammy..

I want to be like princess in loving story..

I want to be like them..have a fairytale..n happy ending..
married with a prince charming..
i hope 1 day i will be like them..
i want some guys love me..
because of my self..
not because who i'm..
i love who love me only..
so guy who love me..
please take me as i'am..

Friday, December 25, 2009

meaning of love and frustration

DO U KNOW WHAT IS MEAN HURT?

DO U KNOW WHAT IS MEAN LOVE?

I HURT WHEN SOMEONE I LOVE..LEAVE ME JUST LIKE THAT..

I LOVE SOMEONE WHO LOVE ME SO MUCH..

DO U REALIZE A PERSON HURT U IT CAME FROM A PERSON U LOVE..

U WILL GET HOW HURT WHEN SOMEONE U LOVE..LEAVE U..

PEOPLE!PLEASE..DONT PLAY WITH LOVE...

LIFE IS ABOUT KARMA..WHAT GOES AROUND WILL COME AROUND..

LOVE SOMEONE NOT JUST BECAUSE HERSELF BUT IT WHAT U SEE IN THEIR HEART..

IF U CAN SEE THE LOVE IN THEIR HEART..

U WILL FIND THE TRUE LOVE N HAPPINESS FOR EVER..

JADI CINTAI DIA DAN TERIMA DIA SEADANYA..

JANGAN MENGHINA OR MENGUTUK CIPTA ALLAH S.W.T..

KERANA KITA MANUSIA BIASA YG TIDAK SEMPURNA..


Thursday, December 24, 2009

I hope 1 day sunrise will shining in my life

I want tell something..that some guy like me..n he want me 2 be his gf..i will like 2..but i still got problem 2 solve..n i hope 1 day i will make him happy..i hope he will happy with me..i want 2 love him..i want him 2 be apart of my life..cz he too nice 4 me..he understand what i feel in my heart..thankz syg..i hope u will always with me..but what can i say is..if true u are my soul mate..it will be happen..

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

i will sad never end..


Today i still feel so bad mood..i don't no why..i don't no what happen..maybe it because of my problem..i feel so sad but he feel so happy his gf...hmm..like he care bout me..i'm always cry this lately..i don't why..i try too make myself happy..but it still feel pain in my heart...ya..u have..because now u already found happiness in your life..every time u open ur eyes u will be able to smell of love..
But not me..i know..maybe 1 day i will get the same situation..just now i have pray to God..ask HIM to give me the way how i want to settle my problem...but i still feel so sad..maybe i will feel so sad until the end of my life..but still pray that i will find the happiness too...

why??

Why i always let people talk bad bout me?..even though they are not really know me..
Why i always let guys hurt me??even though i love them so much..
Why i always let my friend do nothing when i in trouble..even though i always besides them when them in trouble..
Why i always let people make me cry..??even though i never let anybody cry..
Why i always let my self alone??even though i always besides person when they are alone...
Why i always let all of this goes happen too me??why??
Help me find the answer..

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

my truely sad story

I'm a malay girl..so i can mix the language right??like malay n english language..urm..what i'm try say is bout my heart feeling..i feel so sad lately...i dont why..n i dont what goes happen 2 me..like people care..no body care what i feel in my heart...actually i lost my best friend i though he will be.. i never realize that people will blame for everything happen 2 me..i love him..i cant believe it..he do not love me..he just take me as a friend..no matter what happen..i'm still love him..but i know impossible he will with me..i tak boleh nk lupa kan apa yg i n dia dah lalui bersama..macam kelakar je bunyi ayat nie..but i2 lah reality ya..i terlalu percaya kan dia..terlalu memahami dia..terlalu pikir kan pasal dia..sampai apa yang jd kat i pon i tak amik peduli..he happy with his life..but i selalu je sedih dengan hidup nie..mungkin ada hikmah di sebalik semua ini..

new start,new life,new person,new love soon to be.

Okay, this is the new start for me to get on with my life. I've been struggle a lot to prove to other people that I always can stand on my two feet, I won't let other people let me down or underestimate me, literally. I will make sure the person who hurt me before begged to me before he saw his death, I'm very sure. I don't want other people say that 'hey, I can understand you, I'll make you happy' urmmm, but the fact, it doesn't change anything. That's totally bullshit. I hate people making promise but never proof it. I'm so not into that kinda type. I've tried so hard to make other people happy but still they didn't make same things happen to me. I got lot of friends who claimed them my truly best friend forever, like what? they never mean it. They just find me when they're in trouble and need help. But when it's happened to me, they never being beside me. I hate the fact of it but that's the true.